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Summary: Life had become a series of dreadful accidents and incidents for Hilda and the school. Will these now settle down? Will she recover from the blood poisoning and resume all her usual activities? Will she be strong enough to welcome Meg back, or to go to Boston with Ellie? Will she survive till the end of term, spirit intact? And what, then, will the convent bring? And how will Ellie fare after Kathie’s terrible attack?
Rated: General
Categories: Ste Therese's House Characters: Hilda Annersley, Jack Maynard, Kathie Ferrars, Madge (Bettany) Russell, Nancy Wilmot, Nell Wilson, Rosalie Dene
School Period: Switzerland
School Name: Chalet School
Genre: Drama, Family, Friendship, Humour, School Story
Series: A New Dream
Chapters: 43 Completed: No
Word count: 300410 Read: 95933
Published: 20 Sep 2016 Updated: 20 May 2018

1. Chapter 1: - And Light Is A Way by MaryR [Reviews - 105] starstarstarstarstar (7591 words)
Don’t forget to Favourite this new volume. Click on 'Add Story to Favourites' written above the little box at the bottom, and then click 'Submit'. A new page will appear, and again you need to click 'Submit' beneath the little empty box. I know some people have trouble trying to Favourite and get alerts.

I must thank some of you for your kindness in faithfully posting reviews on my re-posting. There are two more old chapters, and then we can finally pick up from where I lost the volume, and begin the new, unread stuff in Chapter 4, which I will post this coming weekend. Fingers crossed I never again do such wholesale deleting!

2. Chapter 2 - Past The Boundaries of Knowing by MaryR [Reviews - 12] starstarstarstarstar (7050 words)
Thanks so much for all the lovely words on that dream sequence. I did so enjoy writing it...

3. Chapter 3 - Shuttered and Barred by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (4274 words)
I can't find words to thank you for all the lovely reviews on those two re-posted chapters. I'm so glad you still liked Hilda's dream, as I so enjoyed writing it and had such fun with the dolphins. One of my own dreams there!

Anyway, we've finally come to the new stuff, the stuff you were expecting to read weeks ago, alas. This is only half of the chapter I posted then, as it was seemingly too long for it all to fit in one chapter.

4. Chapter 4 - Harden Not Your Heart by MaryR [Reviews - 14] starstarstarstarstar (6929 words)
Well, here I am popping up more quickly than you probably expected - but don't get used to it! *grins* I just happened to have this already written, and only needed to tweak it. The next chapter is not written yet!

I can't believe how many of you caught the first chapter so quickly and wrote so many loving and insightful things about Kathie and her reactions. She rather took me by surprise there, so I can imagine yours. Some of you go very deep, making me raise my own game.

Thanks to Elder, Pauline and Blueskye for appreciating the little vignette of Hilda and Emilia during the war. We know very little of that year and a half before the school re-opened, and the Talmudic quotation made a deep impact on me when I first read it years ago, so I combined the two.

5. Chapter 5 - Out of Difficulties Grow Miracles by MaryR [Reviews - 15] starstarstarstarstar (7300 words)
Thank you so much for all the generous, thoughtful responses to that last chapter. I'm growing to love my Ian. *grins* I'm sorry this has taken so long, but it's been a difficult week with SLOC's hospital appointments and so on. Also, I actually hesitated to post it, suspecting some of you may have problems with the ideas involved.

6. Chapter 6 - The God of All Grace by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7558 words)
There are no words that would do justice to the beautiful things you all said about the last chapter, so 'Thank You' will have to do. Jenny, I am in awe at your feelings about this saga and what it's done for you. You relieved my heart a little about my sometimes dubious theology. *winks*

7. Chapter 7 - A God of Surprises by MaryR [Reviews - 14] starstarstarstarstar (6911 words)
Forgive me for the delay, but I'm not sure I can give a reason. My brain just seemed to be in meltdown. But thank you to those who reviewed so lovingly on that chapter about Ellie trying to understand the miracle. Can any of us?

8. Chapter 8 - Fear Not For Your Fragility by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7110 words)
Thank you so much for the kind and encouraging reviews about the last chapter. I's sorry for the delay in updating, but recent computer problems and far too many hospital appointments have held me up. I did try last night but half the chapter disappeared when I hit submit - so fingers crossed for better luck this time. I'm afraid it will all seem rather flat and boring after the last chapters, but am trying to show everyone's reactions to the events of the last few days.

9. Chapter 9 - Two Young Warrior Souls by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (5808 words)
What an interesting and thoughtful mix of reviews! Thank you, one and all, as it was hardly riveting stuff. Not too sure about this one, either, but it's shorter than usual, so you can relax. *winks*

10. Chapter 10 - Some Precious Essence by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (7640 words)
It's by pure chance that I'm posting this on St Hilda's feast day - or at least it's her feast in the Catholic church, so being at Mass this morning was an added touch to the unfolding of this tale. Thank you for the insights on the last chapter. I enjoyed the fact that so many of you lapped up Jack being confounded and bemused. I'm afraid I got carried away with this chapter, though. I wanted to show Ellie and Vivien taking their relationship further, after Ellie was told the news, but it didn't go quite the way I wanted... and may flummox some people.

11. Chapter 11 - The Tender Whisper of Thy Call by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (5793 words)
I'm not quite sure how to thank those people who responded so kindly to that French lesson in the last chapter, the idea being to relieve some of the gloom that seemed to have taken hold. You seemed to enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it, and I do hope you all found my responses to your reviews.

12. Chapter 12 - My Strength, My Song by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7106 words)
Thank you so much for the kind comments on the chapter with Isobel and Helen. Blueskye wants to start a Helen Graves society! *grins*

But I do apologise for the long silence. I never intended to stay away this long, but Christmas and sundry other things simply got in the way, leaving me no long stretches of time to concentrate. And Hilda demands concentration!

13. Chapter 13 - A Soothing Tongue Is A Tree of Life by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (7834 words)
Thank you for all your interesting and thoughtful comments, especially about Jack's reactions to Hilda's astonishing recovery. I do apologise for this new chapter being so dreadfully long, though!

14. Chapter 14 - The Lone Ranger and A Poem by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (7903 words)
Thank you so much to those who responded on the last chapter, though I suspect some of you found it a tad tedious. Perhaps you will find the same with this one, as I try to tie up loose ends, but there is a secret in there somewhere.

Lynne, you wanted more of Meg and MA. Well, fret ye not! Meg will be arriving very soon! Very, very soon! Watch this space!

15. Chapter 15 - A Rose By Any Other Name by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (4499 words)
Thank you for the thoughtful comments on that last chapter. I'm sorry to be so dilatory with this next one, but I fell ill with a nasty bug last Wed and it took till this week to feel well enough to write and then type up this offering.

I've actually written a much shorter chapter this time, as I've had the nagging feeling that I've been getting rather uninteresting and boring recently. If that's true, please forgive me, but I needed to follow where Hilda was leading me. *winks*

16. Chapter 16 - The Fragrance of Forgiveness and Grace by MaryR [Reviews - 14] starstarstarstarstar (6588 words)
Thank you so much for the delightful responses to that last chapter.

I apologise profusely for another long delay, but this year doesn’t seem to be going any better than last. However, I hope this will make up for the delay. If Ellie’s words and actions here seem beyond the scope of a teenager, just remember the way she so thoughtfully worked out what to call Ian Stuart, and also how very honest and thoughtful she was with Meg in the school san after the robbery. I never planned out the character of this young girl - she just grew and expanded, like Topsy - just as I never planned what she would do in this episode. It just poured off my pencil, straight from Ellie herself

17. Chapter 17 - Gathering Golden Moments by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7346 words)
Thank you so much for the wonderful and thoughtful comments on my last chapter, and to the sudden appearance of Mother Abbess. I know you’ve been waiting patiently to see her again. I hope you found my very grateful responses to your reviews.

I’d like also to thank Elder, Pauline, Blueskye and Linda for posting comments to my odd little drabble in February Day Girls on Lesley’s board. Well, I did say I’d bring back one of the Sinclairs soonish!!

18. Chapter 18 - Come Dance With Me by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (6560 words)
Thank you so much to those of you who wrote such interesting and loving reviews to the last chapter, and I hope you found my individual responses. I'm sorry you had to wait so long for this one...

19. Chapter 19 - Water Pooling in Darkness by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (7863 words)
I'm sorry I've not updated for ten days, but I thought it might be nice to celebrate the fact that I posted my first chapter of ND on this day 12 years ago, St Patrick's day. I never envisaged writing such a saga, nor indeed that I'd have the imagination so to do, but is it now beyond boring? Thank you for all the lovely things you've said over the years.

Thanks also to those who posted a review on the last chapter. If you haven't read it, you really need to if you want to understand how Meg was encouraged to face her form. Oh, and you might get a bit of a shock near the end. Hilda certainly gave me one. Oh, and to celebrate Paddy's day, I've posted a drabble in LGM about, well... about lime green doings!

20. Chapter 20 - Even Darkness Must Pass by MaryR [Reviews - 13] starstarstarstarstar (6828 words)
Thank you for all the very interesting thoughts on Hilda's distressing dilemma and on her friendship with MA.

I'm so sorry for the long delay, but there were reasons!

We're leaving Hilda to sleep and having a wee peep at what others are doing in that same time frame.

21. Chapter 21 - What Is Life Without A Friend? by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7491 words)
Thank you for all those extremely thoughtful reviews, and the loving things you said. I was very touched, and do hope you found my responses. This is different and rather static, but was hard to write, so I hope you find something in it that appeals.

A very Happy and Joyous Easter to all.

22. Chapter 22 - No Hand Left Unheld by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (8046 words)
Thank you so much for all the loving, insightful reviews on the last chapter. You are all so kind. I'm sorry for the delay in updating but elderly bodies have a tendency to a mind of their own, hindering one's intended doings! However, here it is, such as it is! Mostly Hilda tying up some loose ends and thanking her friends, much to Matey's despair.

Oh, and thank you to all those who posted a review on my small drabble, Revenge is Lime Green, either here or in LGM.

23. Chapter 23 - Landmarks Shift by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7297 words)
Thank you for all the kindly comments about the dinner party and Hilda's ideas for the mentoring of victims of bullying. I adored Blueskye's idea of Mother's beautiful shawl having a life of its own - and it certainly will appear many times in this saga.

I'm sorry it was such a long chapter, though this one is nearly as long, but the scene isn't finished yet, in the sense that Hilda now has to act. I'll try and have that chapter ready more quickly, now things have eased a little here.

24. Chapter 24 - Dance of The Waters by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (8010 words)
Thank you for the thoughtful comments regarding Hilda finally knowing the truth about Kathie’s jealousy. In fact, I’ve got to the stage where I ought to thank you just for reading each chapter, never mind commenting, as this saga must be getting too big for its boots, so to speak. Some of you have been reading and reviewing for years, and I am truly, truly grateful for every thought you ever posted about it.

I’m sorry this one has been so long coming, but it was difficult to write. Indeed, it was re-written several times, and I'm quite sure most of you would have written it very differently. *winks* I will try to have the next chapter ready *within* the week!

25. Chapter 25 - This Is The Wilderness Time by MaryR [Reviews - 14] starstarstarstarstar (8087 words)
For those who've no idea why there's been such a long delay, I'll just say that I've had computer meltdowns and lost this chapter - twice! The second time I found most of it, fortunately! Many thanks for the very interesting comments on the meeting with Kathie, after Hilda found out the truth. I'm not sure it was what some of you expected, so I'm sorry if you were disappointed. but I do hope those of you who posted reviews all found my responses, because I was truly grateful. It was a hard chapter to put together.

26. Chapter 26 - Patches of Godlight by MaryR [Reviews - 15] starstarstarstarstar (7466 words)
Many apologies to those readers who don't know that I've had more laptop problems (or Windows 10 problems!) and those have delayed this update. Many, many thanks for all the loving reviews, although I do hope you felt the poem Hilda recited was true to her feelings. I know the last chapter wasn't very exciting, and this one's possibly even worse, but the characters needed to express their feelings about events. Things will hopefully move on with the following chapter. Fingers crossed for no more laptop troubles.

27. Chapter 27 - Take Partners, Dance Forgiveness by MaryR [Reviews - 12] starstarstarstarstar (5413 words)
At last, I hear you say! *grins* I've been unable to contact some of my readers, to let you know that severe pain has been undermining me for a couple of months or more, so I haven't been able to sit at the laptop, nor indeed to think clearly enough to write coherently. I hope this chapter will be a positive new start and I can continue, but bear with me if the gap between chapters gets longer. This one shorter than usual, but I hope it will please those who are fond of Kathie. Thank you all for your faithfulness in continuing to read and review.

28. Chapter 28 - Love and Trust Nestle in Friendship by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (7300 words)
Many, many thanks to those of you who found the new chapter after such a long gap, and posted beautiful comments about it. I'm sorry you had to wait longer than intended for this one, but pain has its own agenda, I'm afraid. I was delighted that some of you enjoyed the little scene with Ellie and Matey, and even grew misty-eyed, because it did that to me, too, as I wrote it. As for Kathie, I'm afraid it will be a question of wait and see. She's not talking to me much at the moment.

29. Chapter 29 - The Partner of Her Loneliness by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (8353 words)
Thanks to those very kind people who posted on the last chapter. I do hope you found all my grateful responses.

In many ways, this chapter is more of the same - with a bit of excitement in the middle - but Mother needs to be aware of all Hilda’s inner fears and loneliness, if she’s to help her, and Hilda needs to release it all if she's to recover. The first words straight on from the last line of Ch 28. (And there are two stars in the narrative, telling you to look to the bottom for explanations.)

30. Chapter 30 - A Child's Loving Heart by MaryR [Reviews - 12] starstarstarstarstar (8112 words)
I hope you all found my grateful replies to your kindly reviews on the last chapter. I know it was far too long, so I tried to keep this one short – but, like Topsy, it just growed! You will need to have read the last chapter, though, to understand the why of this one.

31. Chapter 31 - A Crowded Half Hour by MaryR [Reviews - 13] starstarstarstarstar (6699 words)
Thank you for the interesting thoughts about the twins' behaviour and Hilda's response. This chapter was going to include the whole meeting Hilda has with the staff who teach Marianne and Meg. Alas, this first half just grew too long, so I've left the other half, concerning Meg, till next time. Enjoy!

Recently,I did have one reader tell me she doesn't really enjoy the chats between Hilda and Mother, which now has me worrying that you all feel the same, and I should cut them out. Pity, as they're so interesting to write, but perhaps you could let me know your own thoughts on said chapters, if you have any, but by email or PM rather than on here!! *grins*

32. Chapter 32 - The Tender Gravity of KIndness by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (7889 words)
Thank you so much for the beautiful reviews on that last chapter about the staff and Meg. I hope those of you who don't receive alerts also found my responses. Many thanks also to all those who wrote and answered my question re the conversations between Hilda and MA. You relieved my mind.

I'm sorry you had to wait for this, but my body is still rebelling even after all these months.

33. Chapter 33 - Stillness and Beauty by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (8811 words)
Bless you all for the kind reviews, and for the emails I received today re my renewed pain. I'm sorry, but I seem to have got a tad carried away with this...

34. Chapter 34 - Broken Fragments by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (7999 words)
I’m sorry to keep you waiting so long for a new chapter, but life has been hard recently, and I don’t just mean the on-going agony in hip and leg. How I wish I had some of Hilda’s courage! Thank you so much for the lovely reviews on the last chapter. This follows straight on from that long conversation.

35. Chapter 35 - The Twins Open Up Their Hearts by MaryR [Reviews - 13] starstarstarstarstar (6804 words)
Many, many thanks to those loving, kindly people who wrote such wonderful, and totally undeserved, reviews on the last chapter. I'm just sorry I never had the energy to respond to them, as I usually try to do.

I’m also sorry this current chapter has taken so long to appear, but I’ve been struggling with Kate Stuart for two weeks now. I only wanted her part with Ian to be quite short, and wrote a much longer piece to add to it about something else – which will now be the next chapter! Alas, MA wanted what she wanted, and was quite tenacious in getting her own way, so I finally caved in, which does mean you may well find this totally boring and long-winded. Forgive me for that, but I’ve never had quite such a tussle before with a character. Trust MA! Bonne chance, as Ellie would say! And I'll be much quicker in posting next time, and not keep you waiting!

36. Chapter 36 - A Visible Grieving of The Heart by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (6791 words)
Thank you so very much, all of you, for the wonderfully thoughtful reviews you posted about that last chapter, about which I was so worried. Thanks to Mother, you've learned so much more about her and Ian, and how they tick. None of us is perfect, even abbesses, but struggle along just as much as the rest of us. I do hope you found my grateful responses.

37. Chapter 37 - Magnanimous and Natural, and Sweetly Serving by MaryR [Reviews - 8] starstarstarstarstar (7446 words)
Thanks so much to the generous people who are still so faithfully following this saga. Sometimes It surprises me that anyone's still with me after all this time, but I'm very grateful that you are. May I just add that, if you haven't read the chapter before this one, then you do need to do so, or you won't understand the why of Ellie in this one, as it carries over.

38. Chapter 38 - Mother Fears She's Been Too Open by MaryR [Reviews - 17] starstarstarstarstar (6542 words)
It would seem I've let my readers down and bored you with my last few chapters, going by the responses, and I'm so, so sorry, but, alas, I can only write what my characters give me – and believe me, they’re far too real for me to ignore! *rolls eyes* I’m afraid this chapter is more of the same, but sparks will fly again in a little while. I also apologise for the horrid number of spam messages that have appeared overnight all over ND like a rash, including the last chapter. More than 30 of them! Who has the time??? Grr!

Many, many thanks for the kind reviews posted on the last two chapters.

39. Chapter 39 - The Chains of Forlorn Resentment by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (8413 words)
I can't begin to find the right words to thank you for your loving and kindly thoughts to my fears in the last chapter. You are far too good! If you don't receive alerts from here, do go and look at my response to your review, because I appreciated every one.

I'm sorry this has been so delayed, and, indeed, is so long, but Kathie and MA do like to make my task harder than it need be.

40. Chapter 40 - The Kind of Stubborn That Loves Hard and Deep by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (8308 words)
Many thanks for the kind reviews on that chapter with MA and Kathie. You were kinder than I hoped, as it was very hard to write, as I said. Kathie just wouldn't give an inch. And MA wasn't much better! Alas, this one is also too long!

If you can't access the box to review, click on Edit at bottom left in the above panel. That's how I've managed to post this, and I'm sorry you've had to wait.

41. Chapter 41 - The Pot of Gold Buried Deep in the Heart of a Friend by MaryR [Reviews - 11] starstarstarstarstar (7394 words)
Sorry for keeping you waiting, but time has been against me. Thanks also to those of you who succeeded in posting a review on that last chapter, and offering some very interesting points. I'm hoping this chapter isn't too boring, as it's Mother and Hilda again, but Hilda might answer your dithering, Anne, about whether Gilles should have been told the truth.

42. Chapter 42 - Very Humble Apologies by MaryR [Reviews - 2] starstarstarstarstar (565 words)
Thank you for the wonderful reviews of the last chapter, but please see below for the problems I've had with the next one.

43. Chapter 43- Good News and Bad by MaryR [Reviews - 14] starstarstarstarstar (4683 words)
Please forgive the delay in the appearance of this chapter, but there were problems posting it, which is why you might have got an alert for Chapter 42, then found nothing there! If you go back to the chapter 42 that is now there, you'll find an explanation as to what the delay was, why you got the alert and why this is only half of a long chapter. So do go back and read! There’s also a quotation for those who were missing them! *grins*

The other half of the chapter will be posted before the week is out, and hopefully I won’t again be hampered by using too many words. Thank you for the reviews on Ch 41 and also to Lynne for the comment on chapter 42.

The first few words of this chapter follow straight on from the last in Chapter 41