Summary: A near-fatal accident has consequences for several people at the Chalet School. Hilda struggles with the added burden of it all, but finds enough energy and selfless generosity to help those in need, despite her ongoing grief for Nell. Hope now fills Ellie’s heart, thanks to Hilda. Will that same hope begin to infiltrate Hilda’s and Meg’s hearts and bring some much-needed ease?
Rated: General
Categories: Ste Therese's House Characters: Hilda Annersley, Jack Maynard, Jo (Bettany) Maynard, Kathie Ferrars, Matron Lloyd, Nancy Wilmot, Nell Wilson, Rosalie Dene, Sharlie Andrews
School Period: Switzerland
School Name: Chalet School
Genre: Adventure, Drama, Family, Friendship, Humour, School Story
Series: A New Dream
Chapters: 35 Completed: Yes
Word count: 128608 Read: 84208
Published: 01 Mar 2012 Updated: 18 Jul 2012

1. Chapter 1 - Heroines All! by MaryR [Reviews - 29] starstarstarstarstar (4120 words)
Welcome to Vol 7 and thanks to all you kindly people who've been posting or simply reading the last six volumes. You keep me going...

Karita, I hope this is quick enough for you, although I'm not too sure it will relieve your anxiety! Thank you for coming fresh to this story and becoming so involved.

I'm sorry about other readers giving you spoilers, Karita, but this volume should see the end of all the re-posting, and then no one will know what comes next! *grins* There are still roughly 100,000 words to go, however - about the length of a book!

2. Chapter 2 - Matey Fights a Losing Battle by MaryR [Reviews - 60] starstarstarstarstar (4812 words)
Gosh, thank you for such a lovely big welcome to Vol 7.

I’m sorry I couldn’t follow it up more quickly but I wrote two emails yesterday and then found it impossible to use the keyboard after that. I slipped on the stairs a few days ago and have wrenched my still-extremely painful shoulder, which is impacting on my whole arm. *sighs* Ah well, c’est la vie…. 'Revenons a nos moutons', as EBD was wont to say!

3. Chapter 3 - Two Weary Hours Later by MaryR [Reviews - 60] starstarstarstarstar (4537 words)
Please forgive the long delay but this week has involved too many hospitals and medical people....

4. Chapter 4 - Hilda’s Truth by MaryR [Reviews - 7] starstarstarstarstar (3141 words)
Thank you for the reviews and I'm sorry for the delay, but the board has been down and, if you read Winter Woes, you will see how my blinking shoulder is still holding me back.

5. Chapter 5 - Love in all its Many and Varied Forms by MaryR [Reviews - 72] starstarstarstarstar (5251 words)
Thank you all for the kind reviews. Karita, I do hope you saw my response to your two lengthy and thoughtful posts, because I was deeply moved that you would go to such lengths.

6. Chapter 6 - Revelations by MaryR [Reviews - 62] starstarstarstarstar (4436 words)
I felt I had to post a new section today because 17th March seven years ago was the day I posted the very first piece of this saga… Seven years! 2005! I was young then…. I’ve grown old since, and yet Hilda has hardly aged at all. I’d thought to have it finished long before this, so I obviously talk far, far too much….. but bless you all for your kindliness and patience towards my characters and all their troubles.

7. Chapter 7 - The Flower of Peace by MaryR [Reviews - 13] starstarstarstarstar (5224 words)
Thank you for the reviews on the last chapter, my 7th anniversary! Thank you also for the reviews here and in Lime Green Musings for my little drabble about Nell and Cherry. I have to confess to having lost confidence in my writing abilities as I've done no writing at all since starting to re-post this. So your comments really encouraged me. Thank you so much.

Onwards with Hilda....

8. Chapter 8 - The Beat of My Heart by MaryR [Reviews - 65] starstarstarstarstar (3663 words)
I've decided I will continue to post here on SDL until such time as I've finished the re-post and then will post the new stuff on LGM - if there is any!!

I tried to post this chapter all in one go but, in the end, I decided to split it as there is so much to take in. I would like to think that at some time in the future, when you most need it, Hilda’s and Kate’s and CS Lewis’ words will all come back to help you…

9. Chapter 9 - The Insanity that is Grief by MaryR [Reviews - 47] starstarstarstarstar (3854 words)
Many thanks for the loving comments, you four kindly people. Your incredible faithfulness has kept me going over the long haul of this re-posting, much more than you may realise. I know it’s not possible for every reader to write a review for every chapter, but I have appreciated the time and effort taken by every single person who has added a comment, so thank you, each and every one of you. After all, the length of it would stymie a saint!! *grins*

The quotes without a name attached in this piece all come from A Grief Observed

On with the rest of that conversation with MA...

10. Chapter 10 - Keeping the Darkness at Bay by MaryR [Reviews - 8] starstarstarstarstar (3781 words)
Sorry for the earlier alert, but despite all the checking I realised that mistakes were still in evidence.

Many thanks for all the loving and thoughtful comments on the last chapter and Mother Abbess.

I'm sorry for the delay in updating but we've been down to visit our daughter and family in the New Forest.

11. Chapter 11 - Safe Harbour by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (5501 words)
Thank you so much for all the kind and thoughtful comments. Roversgirl and abbeybufo, it was lovely of you to pop up and add your own thoughts. I had been going to update yesterday but RL rather got in the way, but I'm glad now because it gave Amira and AnneM a chance to write two very insightful comments. Thank you, girls, you made me see something new in Hilda's sad thoughts in that corridor.

12. Chapter 12 - A Quality of Golden Goodness by MaryR [Reviews - 4] starstarstarstarstar (3231 words)
Anne M posted - "Thank you, Mary. Looking forward to more quite soon, please!!"

This soon enough for you, Anne? I must say, I loved your thoughts in your review, which put me in mind of dominoes falling one after the other, as Hilda shelters her girls but then demands they move from that shelter and go shelter others. Thank you, and indeed thanks to all of you who reviewed that last chapter, because you all made very valid points about Hilda, and as always gave me more to think about - and write about! (Sorry, Hilda, for ending that sentence with a preposition!!)

13. Chapter 13 - Very Much Her Own Person by MaryR [Reviews - 76] starstarstarstarstar (4229 words)
Thank you, Elder, Pauline and AnneM for keeping me going in the latter stages of this mega re-posting. You're very kind.

Anne said. "I did enjoy the quick (and surely new?) comment from Nell, though I felt for Hilda as she remembered her dream."

You're very quick, Anne, and must have a magnificent memory, but actually it wasn't just Nell's comment that was new, but all the horror Hilda felt at suddenly recalling that Nell also was sort of stoned to death. No idea why that didn't occur to me whwn I first wrote it.

14. Chapter 14 - AMAS Foregathers by MaryR [Reviews - 74] starstarstarstarstar (4066 words)
These family bits - tickling Ellie till she falls off the chair, and calling her impossible - are such fun. And Ian is there ready to join in too, and Gwynneth and Vivian. It really does seem like a family in the making, something Hilda could never really have had with Nell, though her heart does still long for her.

The irony is, Anne, that it took the death of Nell for this to happen, and Hilda is more than aware of that. But it's given a dimension to her life that hasn't been there since the death of her mother, and she's revelling in it - and enjoying sharing it with Nell...

Thanks to all of you for the lovely things you said. I do appreciate reading your words and knowing your thoughts.

15. Chapter 15 - May Mercy Prevail by MaryR [Reviews - 54] starstarstarstarstar (2508 words)
Thank you, Anne, Celia, Elder and Pauline, for your kindly reviews.

Only a short piece today, so you can relax.... and prepare yourselves for the onslaught of the concert! *grins*

16. Chapter 16 - Battles Galore by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (2160 words)
Thank you so much for all the reviews, and especially Amira and Squirrel for your multiple reviews. Amira, I'm so glad you enjoyed Ellie describing Hilda being like a magician with her ingredients when she orders her girls around. It makes me laugh every time I read it and yet I have no idea where the image came from. Ellie poking me, maybe?

17. Chapter 17 - The Moon and Matey by MaryR [Reviews - 7] starstarstarstarstar (2815 words)
"And what an imaginative way to illustrate history! You are a star, Mary!"

Thanks for the compliment, Shesings, but it's really not true, you know! Hilda simply points me in the right direction - and then Vivien adds the humour. I won't deny, though, that my teaching experience also adds its two pennyworth. *grins evilly*

Many thanks to all of you for the loving comments. Elder, I didn't really cut short the concert, as a few other things occur before we return there....

18. Chapter 18 - Always Say What You Mean by MaryR [Reviews - 6] starstarstarstarstar (2234 words)
Thank you so much for the continuing support and encouragement. You have no idea how much it is appreciated. This is another short chapter, but it leads to several much longer ones, which I know some of you prefer, as you can really get your teeth into them.

Well Done Ellie again. Willing to step out and do something she'd rather not, because she knows it's the right thing to do. She's not chosen an easy path by any way, but she'll stand firm and lead Meg by the hand to better pastures for as long as she is needed.

How understanding of you, Squirrel, to see what this is all costing Ellie.

Love Gwynneth here - it's a wonderful picture you paint of her, Mary. I can see her almost bouncing with frustration at Hilda's antics.

Gosh, Seven, thank you so much. But she writes herself, you know, feistiness and all

19. Chapter 19 - Courage Comes at a Price by MaryR [Reviews - 12] starstarstarstarstar (2883 words)
Thank you for your thoughtful comments, everyone.

20. Chapter 20 - Vivien Saves the Day by MaryR [Reviews - 8] starstarstarstarstar (5045 words)
I apologise for the two alerts you now have, but my new laptop was playing silly devils with me....

'What a lovely scene this was. Ellie and Hilda caring for each other so - and teasing each other mercilessly as well! What a wonderful relationship they have. I bet many in the school would love it - Ellie must feel privileged to be the only one who is able to experience it so.'

Thank you, Squirrel, Im sure she does feel privileged but I think she's earned that closeness, hasn't she? And I think Hilda also feels privileged to have a relationship that she's never had before, and with a girl who is so natural with her.

Thanks to everyone for their lovely reviews. Anonymous, your words might have been short but they were very expressive and I feel truly honoured.

21. Chapter 21 - Hilda’s Borrowed Head by MaryR [Reviews - 59] starstarstarstarstar (4040 words)
Linda wrote in her review - I’ve read this in a break from the frantic final preparations for my beloved daughter’s wedding on Saturday. I could not wish for her a stronger love than that between Hilda and Nell which survived the grave.

I am in awe, Linda, that you would want for your daughter what my Hilda and Nell had. Bless you for the wonderful compliment. I wish your daughter joy all the days of her life and a love that knows no end.

Thank you to everyone for your kindly thoughts and comments. Shesings, I was well used to producing plays, Nativity plays and other performances in my years as a primary school teacher.

22. Chapter 22 - No worst, there is none..... by MaryR [Reviews - 53] starstarstarstarstar (2973 words)
Many thanks to those of you who posted on the last chapter, 'Hilda's Borrowed Head.'

I have to confess to finding it very difficult to edit and post this next rather emotional chapter, following on as it does the sudden death of my sister-in-law. I can't find enough words to thank all those of you who posted prayers and good wishes for my poor brother in 'Positive Thoughts' on the board.

23. Chapter 23 - While You Were There... by MaryR [Reviews - 74] starstarstarstarstar (4672 words)
Aw, bless you for all the loving thoughts and for all the kindly reviews.

Elder, no, Hilda never cuts herself any slack, does she?

24. Chapter 24 - Two Lonely Spirits by MaryR [Reviews - 12] starstarstarstarstar (4401 words)
Thank you, Elder, Karita and Pauline, for your thoughtful reviews. I'm so glad you enjoyed Nell's joyous letters even as you sighed for Hilda's renewed loneliness....

25. Chapter 25 - Three Generous and Sensitive Women by MaryR [Reviews - 10] starstarstarstarstar (4665 words)
Thank you for the loving reviews - and especially Celia for writing two reviews, one for the chapter she had missed and one for Ch 24. You're a star!

Every one of you is a star for the number of points you cover in your reviews and for how you all perceive things in your own very different ways. They make for interesting reading and can sometimes cause me to veer in another direction.

26. Chapter 26 - An Alien Land by MaryR [Reviews - 51] starstarstarstarstar (2547 words)
Thank you, Elder, Pauline, Celia and Sheisngs, for your loving thoughts on what Celia calls ....three interesting cameos in one chapter. I hadn't seen it like that but it's true, isn't it?

Yes, Pauline, Hilda's darkness is a true darkness of the soul. Hands are held out to her, friends are trying to lighten the darkness, but it's so very hard to break through to the light. Her trust in God is unwavering, though....

27. Chapter 27 - Hilda Meets her Match by MaryR [Reviews - 64] starstarstarstarstar (3442 words)
My goodness, I am being spoilt! Squirrel, thank you so much for the FOUR reviews you wrote here and Amira for your three! Wow! I can't believe how kind that was. Thank you, and indeed many thanks to all who wrote such caring reviews about Hilda.

What's interesting when there are several reviews is to see how sometimes your thoughts diverge, and you make me, the author, think a little harder. But I had to laugh at Amira when she wrote - "May I shamefacedly admit to spluttering with laughter at the squashed spider sandwiches and Hilda's response?! I was on the train reading this (as always) and got some very funny looks, I can tell you!" Why have I quoted that? Because it reinforces my point above about your diverging viewpoints. Most readers' response to that part was "Yuk! The poor girl!" But Hilda did make it amusing, didn't she, by trying to soothe Ellie?

Sorry, I'll shut up now and post the start of something good....

28. Chapter 28 - What is True Courage? by MaryR [Reviews - 8] starstarstarstarstar (4225 words)
Many thanks for the kind and thoughtful reviews.

AnnM wanted to know about the Sinclair twins. Well, I can tell all of you that one of them, at least, will be appearing in the new parts I am writing! I'm pondering on how to get the other one also involved.

Seven wondered why Hilda herself answered the door to the Mousselin parents, but I'm sure Hilda would have wanted to give her secretary a rest on a Sunday and also the little servies were still going on at that point in time.

I've posted these questions here in case anyone else was wondering and has other questions they might like to ask! Feel free... *grins*

29. Chapter 29 - The Fun Begins by MaryR [Reviews - 59] starstarstarstarstar (5451 words)
Thank you for the comments, especially those of you who mentioned the new additions. Yes, I included a whole new piece about what courage is - and adding Tessa to the heroine list - although I have no doubt some of you will think I've got the idea of courage all wrong. Please never be afraid to argue with anything I write....

"So love the Mousselins and the whole way they behave - seriously hoping you plan pairing them up with the Sinclairs when we get to the new parts of ND - which I'm sure Hilda will send to you when she's ready and knows you've posted all of her previously written memoirs."

Not too sure if Hilda is going to send me anything at all, Clair, the way things are going, but pairing up the Sinclair twins and the Mousselin family might be a tad difficult. We'll see! *grins*

30. Chapter 30 - A True Magician by MaryR [Reviews - 68] starstarstarstarstar (3647 words)
Thanks so much to the small group of you ommenting on this riotous dinner party. Soomeone wrote to me after the last chapter, the one about courage, and told me how much the quotes about courage had resonated with her in a very difficult situation she was experiencing. I'm so humbled when ND can occasionally offer people some small spark of hope in their fraught lives.

31. Chapter 31 - Neither Hilda nor Gilles mince their words by MaryR [Reviews - 5] starstarstarstarstar (3134 words)
Someone asked me had I been Googling magic to find the gateau but, alas, I must admit that gateau is my own invention, coming to me slowly piece by tiny piece over many weeks, and I wasn't sure if it would work. The trick with the spoon I did find on on the net, but how to describe in words what you've only seen in a movie clip?

Many thanks for all the loving reviews, especially Squirrel who wrote so many at once. I apologise for the delay in updating but we were away in Spain last week and had a truly peaceful time.

If you recall, in the last chapter Hilda had fallen apart in her little kitchen but managed to pull herself together again....

32. Chapter 32 - Hilda Thanks the Magicians by MaryR [Reviews - 55] starstarstarstarstar (1774 words)
Many thanks to those of you who enjoyed the last chapter where we saw both Hilda's and Gille's truth. It is a chapter very dear to my heart, for some reason, so bless you for responding and letting me know your thoughts.

I'm sorry for the delay but life is absolutely manic at the moment and any downtime I have is spent recovering. This chapter is very small, but I didn't want to break up the next one, so enjoy....

33. Chapter 33 - Jack Speaks His Mind by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (2068 words)
Thank you all for the loving reviews!f Karita, I hope this chapter will go some way to relieving your mind with regard to Hilda.

I'm sorry for the lack of updates at the moment, RL being what it is, and I also apologise for the shortness of the update. The next one wil be a little longer.

34. Chapter 34 - A Mother and Daughter Moment by MaryR [Reviews - 61] starstarstarstarstar (2725 words)
Thank you for all the loving comments and welcome to Joanne, who has made the ultimate sacrfice and spent more hours than she can spare trying to catch up with this saga!

I've been fascinated by the differing views of Hilda's behaviour and the way some of you long to shake her. I guess she's more real than I thought.

This piece is the end of a long day. Three days ago was the accident, the night before was the concert, and this day saw the lunch party with the twins and their parents. Time to put the day to bed....

35. Chapter 35 - Monday, Monday.... by MaryR [Reviews - 9] starstarstarstarstar (1353 words)
I’m sure many of you oldies recall the song I've used as the title for this chapter – as sung by the Mamas and Papas. *sighs* Oh, to be young again!

I would like to thank all of you who stuck with me as I re-posted my colossal saga, both those of you who were simply reading and those of you who were kind enough to post reviews. I feel blessed that new people stumbled upon it and told me how much they were enjoying it. Thank you for sticking with Hilda. I’d like to think that those of you who had read the story the first time round got something out of this re-read, as well as encouraging me to keep going. I certainly did! When I began ND I had never written a story in my life, so it was a steep learning curve and this re-posting showed me a lot of the errors I had been making, so much so that I have cut out a good 70,000 words from the original document. Nearly a book’s worth!