Date: 17 Nov 2017 4:00 am Title: Chapter 1 - Hilda Tries to Contain her Grief
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Date: 03 Jan 2016 10:34 pm Title: Chapter 1 - Hilda Tries to Contain her Grief
I have just spent 4 hours reading and crying over this - thank you so much for all of your insights and the extra poetry and readings - wonderful
Date: 11 Nov 2011 11:02 pm Title: Chapter 9 - A Problem Rears its Ugly Head
I've been rereading this and remembering just how well written it is. So moving because it is so real. The poem used in this section (9) is one that is of immense comfort to me at times although tonight I've been too sore to be able to read it but will be coming back to this part later when I'm more ready.
Author's Response: Cathie, thank you so much for your review. I'm moved that the poem means so much to you. I actually read it at my mum's funeral last year, thinking how suitable it was for her, as she never repined, just got on with life. So I'm glad it gives you comfort. I just wish I could find out the author....
Date: 15 Aug 2011 5:37 pm Title: Chapter 15 - Continuation of Chapter 14.
Well, I am in tears right now. I have just read the last few chapters altogether, and been completely immersed in Hilda's world. I love the fun scenes with the proverbs and students; they really serve as a balance to the high drama of the emotions that Hilda is feeling. Mary, there is a beauty in your writing - a delicacy in the description. You give everything such value by refusing to rush or curtail it. I said before, there are words here that I feel I may return to one day if I need them. Your last section in this rand especially, uncannily true for me. Thank you for giving so much of yourself to this and allowing (you probably couldn't stop this if you tried!) your faith and hope to come through in a completely non-patronising way. Whew. I will take a little break before I continue with volume 2, but I feel compelled to keep on reading very soon!
Date: 15 Aug 2011 2:18 pm Title: Chapter 11 - Guardian Angels Fly to Hilda's Rescue
Whew, this is almost too painful to read at points - it must have taken you over when you wrote it. Such a realistic portrayal of the ups and downs of grieving - Nancy was strong, there. I like the way you keep integrating extracts and quotes. Thank you for another powerful chapter.
Date: 12 Aug 2011 6:15 pm Title: Chapter 8 - True courage - and what it costs.
Loved Tessa's essay and also the 'conversations' with Nell, but, oh, that awful awful feeling of waking up and taking a couple of seconds to realise that someone is gone ... it's like re-living the shock all over again :(
Date: 12 Aug 2011 4:48 pm Title: Chapter 7 - Nancy's Bright Idea!
Wow, what a wonderful scene! LOVED Nancy's idea and the feeling of community support from the whole school, filling the room with laughter. I did feel for Hilda being the unwilling focus of attention though, bless her!
I am full of admiration for your French Limerick! I only understood about 2 thirds of it, so thanks for the translation!
Date: 12 Aug 2011 12:20 pm Title: Chapter 2 - The Abbess Meets the Abbess
A very moving chapter - and one I can imagine returning to in the future for some of the wisdom spoken here. Glad to see Hilda's first tentative steps towards acceptance but how hard the journey will be.
Date: 12 Aug 2011 12:10 pm Title: Chapter 1 - Hilda Tries to Contain her Grief
Mary, FINALLY (thanks to the order of the SDL!) I have been able to organise myself to start reading this from the very beginning! I duly read Lesley's story first as you suggested and now have that lovely feeling of a looong story ahead that I can get immersed in! Loving this so far, with such a realistic unflinching description of grief. So many stories & films gloss over the grief process although many of us now that in RL it never really goes away ... Thank you. I have a pot of coffee next to me to see me through the first part of a nice long read :-)
Date: 18 Jul 2011 11:14 pm Title: Chapter 15 - Continuation of Chapter 14.
I have lost count of the number of times I have read New Dreams over the course of the last three years since I discovered the Board. Every time I read it, I discover something new as well as a reminder of why I enjoy reading it so much. I am in awe, Mary of your ability to show us so much joy and sadness through the magic of your words.
The picture you draw of Hilda’s grief is so vivid, as are the reactions of all those who interact with her, be they old or new friends. Through the power of your words I have been privileged to walk beside Hilda as she comes to terms with the consequences of the earthquake and all that entails. Between them Nell and MA have helped Hilda to realise the truth in the words of Psalm 16:
“Thou wilt show me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.”
Thank you Mary, not only for writing this story in the first place, but for posting it here for us to read and enjoy again (especially in view of all the RL hassles that you are having at the moment)
Date: 13 Jul 2011 10:26 pm Title: Chapter 15 - Continuation of Chapter 14.
So many vivid descriptions in this piece: Hilda's account to MA of how that dream of Nell lifted her from the bleak wastes of despair to such a peak of joy; MA's own words in response to Hilda's letter, and her assurances that that joy would be lasting, because Hilda's own trust in God was restored; and that loving conversation with Nell herself as Hilda acknowledges the help which God has brought her, both in the past and in the present, and her love for Him.
There is so much strength there, as she describes it all and recognises the growth of that New Dream which Nell so much wanted for her. Thank you, Mary, I could visualise it all so clearly through the power of your words.
Date: 13 Jul 2011 9:52 pm Title: Chapter 15 - Continuation of Chapter 14.
That was just perfect Mary. It shows the bonds of deep love and affection which exist for Hilda with all of those she loves - Nancy, Gwynneth, Kate, and Nell - couldn't forget her of course. It is a picture of the wonderful caring friendships they all have, and is a lovely picture of what iy os to be a true friend. What a wonderful way to finish off the scene. Thank you Mary. :)
Date: 13 Jul 2011 7:01 pm Title: Chapter 14 - Hilda Dreams
" We should all have such dreams" breathed Matey....Indeed, seeing her rainbow through the rain has been such a restorative for Hilda, and seeing the site of Nell's death hopefully removed some of her bitterest guilt.
Thankyou Mary for revealing some of Hilda's deepest emotions to us.
Date: 13 Jul 2011 2:30 am Title: Chapter 14 - Hilda Dreams
Oh rest in the Lord, wait silently for Him...
Those words from the Oratorio Elijah sprang to my mind several times as I read this episode, most clearly during Hilda's awakening as we saw how much heart she had taken from her dream encounter with Nell. It is clear that this has brought her renewed peace of mind and the strength to go on once again without Nell, who, she now knows, will always be with her in spirit, if not in body. I really enjoyed the reaction of both Nancy and Gwyneth as they encountered a Hilda who was almost re-born, in complete contrast to her state the previous day.
I'm glad Nancy re-emphasized how much she is learning from Hilda as the latter copes with her grief, and how that reinforces Gwyneth's words from earlier on about how much she does have to teach others through her grief. I can also see how much Nancy appreciates her own increasing contact with Mother Abbess and the support she is receiving from her.
Thank you, Mary, for taking the time to post this section and allowing us to be present as Hilda moves one stage further through her grief journey through your words.
Date: 13 Jul 2011 12:53 am Title: Chapter 1 - Hilda Tries to Contain her Grief
Mary, I had forgotten how poignant this was. I am so much enjoying reading this for the 3rd time! :-)
Date: 12 Jul 2011 10:30 pm Title: Chapter 14 - Hilda Dreams
Mary - I am awed and humbled at the fact you have managed to post here despite everything else that has been going on for you, especially such heart wrenching scenes of this nature. I'm hoping that all does go well for you in RL over the next few days and weeks. Now, onto Hilda and Nell. That was just amazing. That Nell should take Hilda to the place where she died, and show her what had really happened was inspired - I doubt I would have thought of it! The visit in the dream was so touching, and enabled Hilda to finally get off her chest all that she had been feeling and thinking in relation to Nell. I'm sure that will help her in the healing process. I also loved the way that Nancy and Gwynneth were there simply waiting on her when she awoke at different times. And I'm so pleased to hear that Nancy has Kathie sorted out for the moment. Long may that state of affairs continue. Thank you Mary - both for the stunning beauty of this post - that must have been a lot of work, and the fact you managed to get it posted this evening, despite everything./p>